Benson had his one year anniversary from diagnosis (
dx) on December 27
th. Since then I have contemplated how our lives have changed and what we have learned from our experiences. I wanted to share some thoughts about it:
1)We have received countless blessings from him becoming a diabetic. My testimony of the plan of salvation has been strengthened. It's comforting to know that this disease will only be with him during this life and that his body will be restored to perfection in the next life. It's easier for me to see the bigger picture of why we are here on earth and what our purpose is. I have had many experiences this past year that have made me appreciate how precious our lives are and how close our Heavenly Father is. It's comforting to know that Heavenly Father is in control of our lives and gives us help when we are in need of it.
2) The scariest part about the disease short-term is him going into hypoglycemia. I have spent many nights worrying about Benson and just praying that he will be fine during the night. Dr.Christensen told us that if his
BG's go really low during the night he will have a seizure which will send
glucagon through his system and bring him out of hypoglycemia. That is not a comforting thought. I worry more during the night then I do during the day about Benson's
BG's.
3) We can't always control what we are given to deal with, but we can always control our attitudes. I have realized that no matter the situation--there is always something positive that can be learned. We aren't given trials to make us miserable, we are given them to strengthen us and teach us to be better human beings. Our family is stronger because of diabetes. It is easy to see the Lords hand in our lives. Here are some examples:
a) We were accepted to
UW med school and were placed 6 hours away from home during our first year of school when Benson was
dx. This allowed me to visit home often during our transition into our new lives. What a great Blessing!
b) We had many miracles and special experiences during the 2-day period when he was diagnosed--I felt very close to heaven and my Savior during those times. This helped me accept his condition with a grateful heart.
c) I have been given a calling that keeps me in touch with families who are either living at the hospital or Ronald McDonald House with children who also have medical conditions. I feel a lot of support and comfort from these people. Their spirits and attitudes are contagious and I feel very fortunate to have made strong friendships with them.
d) We live 1 mile from Seattle Children's hospital--what more can we ask for? They have treated us with love, compassion, and have given us LOTS of attention. I put my full trust in them. We are fortunate to be able to use their resources and knowledge. Barb (our nurse) is a full-time nurse who specializes in infant/toddler
BG's. We talked almost on a daily basis during Benson's transition onto the pump. We could not have done it without her.
4) Reece prepared us for Benson. When Reece was an infant we learned the hard way that he was severely allergic to milk. It was a struggle to get him to eat and his weight was far below the 0 percentile line. When Benson was
dx my first thought was "oh, this will be easy--
atleast there is a solution to everything. If he's low then give him sugar, if he's high then give him insulin". Unfortunately I was naive in thinking that, but it helped! Reece and Benson are normal kids but both have health issues (one can't have milk or nuts and the other has to count
carbs--no big deal). My hope is they will embrace their differences and be stronger because of it.
It has been a good year. It has been a rewarding experience to look back and see how we have overcome our obstacles. It wasn't always easy, our transition onto the pump was a very emotional experience for me, but I feel empowered now that I have accomplished it. It is still a daily struggle to get his numbers in target range, but we will get there. I just have to remember to have patience, be exact with my
carb counting, and enjoying the blessings that come from it.